Start Anew

Today, what I want to do is start over. Sell my house and start anew. I am in over my head and I know this all too much. While I am not totally struggling.... I am struggling. I always hate to admit it and feel weak and a let down admitting it. I miss the days when I had no big responsibilities except my daughter. Ahh, the good life. I think that I want to sell and move in with my parents or get an apartment. Oh how I crave to pay rent and not have to worry about the structure. I know alot of people would scoff at that and say I am crazy, I own a home. Well my friends, while that is all good and dandy, I am not a homeowner. I know nothing about home repairs or upkeep. Sure I'll mow the lawn every now and again, or plant flowers, but other than that, I am a sad case. And I am sick of it. I wanna sell and pay off my mortgage and pay off my bills and whatever I have left over, place in the bank. I know, bad economy, you can't sell!!??. I say, fuck you. I'll fix a few more things and then I want to get the hell out of dodge.